My loves,
I was reading post secrets today instead of writing my ethical issue paper.... =/
and I came across this._-->
People like that makes it all worth the stress and battles we fought/fighting/and will fight in the nursing world.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
You are not your mind...
I know this may seem a little trippy to some of you...but give it a chance because once you truly understand it, it will blow your mind...haha, literally! enjoy :)
"Identification with your mind causes thought to become compulsive. Not to be able to stop thinking is a dreadful affliction, but we don't realize this b/c almost everyone is suffering from it, so it is considered normal. This incessant mental noise prevents you from finding that realm of inner stillness that is inseparable from Being. It also creates a false mind-made self that casts a shadow of fear and suffering. ...The compulsive thinker, which means almost everyone, lives in a state of apparent separateness, in an insanely complex world of continuous problems and conflict, a world that reflects the ever-increasing fragmentation of the mind. ....Identification with your mind creates an opaque screen of concepts, labels, images, words, judgments, and definitions that blocks all true relationships. It comes between you and yourself between you and your fellow man and woman, between you and nature, between you and your God. A belief may be comforting. Only through your own experience, however does it become liberating. Thinking has become a disease. Disease happens when thinking gets out of balance (as cells do when dividing and multiplying in the body becomes out of balance and causes cancer). ...The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive. To put it more accurately, it is not so much that you use your mind wrongly- you usually don't use it at all. It uses you. This is the disease. You believe that you are your mind. This is the delusion. The instrument has taken over you. You are unconsciously identified with it. ...The moment you learn to go beyond this thinker a higher level of consciousness becomes activated; you begin to realize that thought is only a tiny aspect of intelligence. You realize that all the things that truly matter- beauty, love, creativity, joy, inner peace- arise from beyond the mind." E. Tolle- from The Power of Now (great book by the way)
Of course for us, as believers, we begin to awaken or are reborn when we come to Christ and come to the knowledge and understanding of His being and His power which, through the Holy Spirit is in us as well. But I love how Tolle breaks down the different layers of...I guess being. He's talking about how occupied and involved we are with our thoughts and the things that go through our minds. I don't know about you guys, but I can literally spend hours just thinking...whether its abuot the future or current situations, whatever it may be I begin to create my own reality and understanding about things, or even other people. Sometimes I act and react based on these thoughts (don't act like you haven't done it). Tolle says that when we learn to go beyond our thoughts there is a vast realm of intelligence that often goes untouched. He's saying that once we can seperate ourselves from this screen of though that sometimes creates illusions, we begin to look deep beyond the level of physical appearances.... All this reminds me of the acronym for FEAR- false evidence appearing real.
I know this all sounds kinda New Age'y, but I just find it fascinating!
Let me know what you think.
-B
"Identification with your mind causes thought to become compulsive. Not to be able to stop thinking is a dreadful affliction, but we don't realize this b/c almost everyone is suffering from it, so it is considered normal. This incessant mental noise prevents you from finding that realm of inner stillness that is inseparable from Being. It also creates a false mind-made self that casts a shadow of fear and suffering. ...The compulsive thinker, which means almost everyone, lives in a state of apparent separateness, in an insanely complex world of continuous problems and conflict, a world that reflects the ever-increasing fragmentation of the mind. ....Identification with your mind creates an opaque screen of concepts, labels, images, words, judgments, and definitions that blocks all true relationships. It comes between you and yourself between you and your fellow man and woman, between you and nature, between you and your God. A belief may be comforting. Only through your own experience, however does it become liberating. Thinking has become a disease. Disease happens when thinking gets out of balance (as cells do when dividing and multiplying in the body becomes out of balance and causes cancer). ...The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive. To put it more accurately, it is not so much that you use your mind wrongly- you usually don't use it at all. It uses you. This is the disease. You believe that you are your mind. This is the delusion. The instrument has taken over you. You are unconsciously identified with it. ...The moment you learn to go beyond this thinker a higher level of consciousness becomes activated; you begin to realize that thought is only a tiny aspect of intelligence. You realize that all the things that truly matter- beauty, love, creativity, joy, inner peace- arise from beyond the mind." E. Tolle- from The Power of Now (great book by the way)
Of course for us, as believers, we begin to awaken or are reborn when we come to Christ and come to the knowledge and understanding of His being and His power which, through the Holy Spirit is in us as well. But I love how Tolle breaks down the different layers of...I guess being. He's talking about how occupied and involved we are with our thoughts and the things that go through our minds. I don't know about you guys, but I can literally spend hours just thinking...whether its abuot the future or current situations, whatever it may be I begin to create my own reality and understanding about things, or even other people. Sometimes I act and react based on these thoughts (don't act like you haven't done it). Tolle says that when we learn to go beyond our thoughts there is a vast realm of intelligence that often goes untouched. He's saying that once we can seperate ourselves from this screen of though that sometimes creates illusions, we begin to look deep beyond the level of physical appearances.... All this reminds me of the acronym for FEAR- false evidence appearing real.
I know this all sounds kinda New Age'y, but I just find it fascinating!
Let me know what you think.
-B
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Resumes, Cover Letters, Applications Oh My!
My loves,
First of all can I just say you all are truly irreplaceable!! It has been so unbelievably hard to adjust to post-grad life. But I'm so excited about our new journey as student nurses (Rosa & Kelly) and new grad nurses (Me, Abs, Beri, & Mel). Don't get me wrong though, it took me months to be excited about it!!! To update some of you who may not know here's what I've been up to post-grad.
Jovy's Life Post-Grad May-July 29th 2010....
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| Sleep |
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| Countless Studying for NCLEX |
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| Sleep some more |
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Study Study and more freakin' studying. |
A little bit of unnecessary drama in between all of that and finally as you all know I am officially Jovy, RN, BSN. Now I'm where Beri is at. Resumes, cover letters, and applications galore (and extreme boredom that has resorted to watching Hannah Montana, learning origami, and baking). It is crazy how desperate you get after a couple of applications and set backs. You honestly do start settling. I applied for float ICU. That would be death to me if I actually got the job! The one thing that is really frustrating about the job search adventures is that it kills me to know that I have seen and worked with, excuse my negativity, nurses who I have no idea why they are in this field. It makes me angry! For all of us nursing isn't just a job, its what we feel called to. We want to do so much more with nursing, We are different. And it frustrates me that positions are given to burnt-out, gossipy, stubborn, nurses because they have experience. Oh and don't you love Obama? Ha! It's really funny when people always tell me "oh it will be easy to find a job as a nurse, there's so many positions available online." Reallyyyyy!!! Tell me where all those new grad positions are so abundantly available? Because I only see 2-3 a week, if I am lucky! Out of the 2-3, 0-1 email me back, not even call, to say sorry we cannot give you the position.
I love that I could be real with you guys and you all understand what it's like. Because people may think they know, but they really don't know! Nursing school was killer and it doesn't get easier after. At least not instantly! But through out all of this God has been unbelievably amazing! I love journaling and throughout my season as a college student I kept journals for every new year. It's so amazing to look back and see all that He has done. Really! I know it sounds cliche, but I am so grateful for all that He had to do to get me to this day. Yes I am unemployed, but the love, education, and friends I have gained on this journey to becoming His nurse gives me such hope for the future.
You guys know Kelly S. from our class? Something she said to me really ministered to my heart.
"Haha, I let you know when I feel hardcore.... I'm not there yet! Yes! I agree with you! At first, I didnt think that the job I have now was going to be what I really wanted. But, God has totally blessed me, with my schedule and my main preceptor for orientation was amazing. She is a christian and it made work so much more positive! (nurses can get so negative sometimes) And everyday that I am there, I can feel God's grace to do my job. I know this is exactly where I am supposed to be. So as long as you follow God... He will bless you beyond your own expectations and the right job will be there! When I was trying to figure out where to live after school you told me, to go where God is going to really help (or make) me grow the most. I'm there. :)"
Okay first of all, Kelly's heart is so beautiful!! I loved getting to know her last semester. When she told me that it re-focused my heart and mind. I was so caught up in the fact that I NEEDED a job and I NEEDED it right now that I forgot how beautiful God orchestrates our life. I know that I won't have to settle with Him. I know that I will feel that it is where I am supposed to be. Just like all the decisions I have made and places I have been, I will know. My God has been with me, and will always be! So my loves, don't forget that as cliche as it sounds, He really does have a plan for your life. I am so honored to know you and have you all in my life. Don't let life numb the places in your heart God has stored dreams in.
Love you guys,
Jovy
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| BAM!!!! It's official, Jovy, RN, BSN |
Too much time wasted...
Hello beautiful Ladies!
Let me be the first to post a random blog. :)
So I have just had waaay too much time on my hands lately. This season of transitioning has really propelled my mind into a magical place (well...sometimes not so magical) where things just work out MY way and in MY timing. *siiigh* Reality is- just the exact opposite has taken place in this season that i'm in...which for the most part just feels like a rusty attic with cobb webbs and dust....(are you picturing it?)...... The reality is, every morning I wake up and search the internet for job postings, apply to about 6-7 jobs a day (even when the requirements include 5+ years of nursing experience). You see I went from being very confident that I would have a job right after NCLEX and being very picky in the jobs I applied to as well...to completely removing all my standards and 'wants' when it came to job hunting. I've applied to nursing homes, rehab facilities, longterm care, etc....NOT what I had in mind. When I'm not applying for jobs i'm laying out in the sun, picking fights with my sister, staying out late with 'the boy,' trying a new happy hour spot almost every day of the week, "borrowing" movies from Redbox ( :-p ), spending hours daydreaming about my perfect wedding dress & actually attempting to draw stick figures with dresses that just look like squares or other awkward shapes, rather.
Just a week ago I had a revelation...Proverbs 16:9
"The mind of man plans his way but the Lord directs his steps."
I have simply spent too much time wasting time. Instead I need to use this transitioning season to hear from God about where he wants me...what he wants from me and how he's going to use me at this point in my life. Often we have an end goal in mind and can see the big picture at the end...the finale. But it's the journey along the way that matters most. The people you meet along the way and influence, the little things that God trys to direct your attention to, the people he places in your life that need your prayers and encouragement...all these things and more are apart of the journey that i'm on-that we're all on- while we're getting to that big picture that we keep on envisioning. Eritrea, China, Vietnam, Cambodia, etc. These are places, big pictures, that God has put in each one of our hearts. But in the meantime...what are we doing with our time, besides working...or looking for a job...or finishing up our degrees...?? How are we fulfilling God's purpose in our lives on a daily basis? That was my wake up call right there. And that's when I started to look for volunteering opportunities where I can gain experience to put on my resume but also make a difference somewhere and just be available for whatever God's trying to do with me right now. I never want to "just be" or merely exist. I want every day of my life to count for something and represent God's Love. Thinking about all that I can be doing with my time untill God opens up a door somewhere just makes me soo excited! I have a looong list and I can't wait to start checking things off. :)
I encourage you ladies to never settle for dull or lame moments/days. Take advantage of every day to make it worth your while. Most importantly to L-O-V-E.
Let me be the first to post a random blog. :)
So I have just had waaay too much time on my hands lately. This season of transitioning has really propelled my mind into a magical place (well...sometimes not so magical) where things just work out MY way and in MY timing. *siiigh* Reality is- just the exact opposite has taken place in this season that i'm in...which for the most part just feels like a rusty attic with cobb webbs and dust....(are you picturing it?)...... The reality is, every morning I wake up and search the internet for job postings, apply to about 6-7 jobs a day (even when the requirements include 5+ years of nursing experience). You see I went from being very confident that I would have a job right after NCLEX and being very picky in the jobs I applied to as well...to completely removing all my standards and 'wants' when it came to job hunting. I've applied to nursing homes, rehab facilities, longterm care, etc....NOT what I had in mind. When I'm not applying for jobs i'm laying out in the sun, picking fights with my sister, staying out late with 'the boy,' trying a new happy hour spot almost every day of the week, "borrowing" movies from Redbox ( :-p ), spending hours daydreaming about my perfect wedding dress & actually attempting to draw stick figures with dresses that just look like squares or other awkward shapes, rather.
Just a week ago I had a revelation...Proverbs 16:9
"The mind of man plans his way but the Lord directs his steps."
I have simply spent too much time wasting time. Instead I need to use this transitioning season to hear from God about where he wants me...what he wants from me and how he's going to use me at this point in my life. Often we have an end goal in mind and can see the big picture at the end...the finale. But it's the journey along the way that matters most. The people you meet along the way and influence, the little things that God trys to direct your attention to, the people he places in your life that need your prayers and encouragement...all these things and more are apart of the journey that i'm on-that we're all on- while we're getting to that big picture that we keep on envisioning. Eritrea, China, Vietnam, Cambodia, etc. These are places, big pictures, that God has put in each one of our hearts. But in the meantime...what are we doing with our time, besides working...or looking for a job...or finishing up our degrees...?? How are we fulfilling God's purpose in our lives on a daily basis? That was my wake up call right there. And that's when I started to look for volunteering opportunities where I can gain experience to put on my resume but also make a difference somewhere and just be available for whatever God's trying to do with me right now. I never want to "just be" or merely exist. I want every day of my life to count for something and represent God's Love. Thinking about all that I can be doing with my time untill God opens up a door somewhere just makes me soo excited! I have a looong list and I can't wait to start checking things off. :)
I encourage you ladies to never settle for dull or lame moments/days. Take advantage of every day to make it worth your while. Most importantly to L-O-V-E.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Random Acts of Kindness
Hey Lovers,
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