Too much time wasted...

Hello beautiful Ladies!

Let me be the first to post a random blog. :)
So I have just had waaay too much time on my hands lately. This season of transitioning has really propelled my mind into a magical place (well...sometimes  not so magical) where things just work out MY way and in MY timing. *siiigh* Reality is- just the exact opposite has taken place in this season that i'm in...which for the most part just feels like a rusty attic with cobb webbs and dust....(are you picturing it?)...... The reality is, every morning I wake up and search the internet for job postings, apply to about 6-7 jobs a day (even when the requirements include 5+ years of nursing experience). You see I went from being very confident that I would have a job right after NCLEX and being very picky in the jobs I applied to as well...to completely removing all my standards and 'wants' when it came to job hunting. I've applied to nursing homes, rehab facilities, longterm care, etc....NOT what I had in mind. When I'm not applying for jobs i'm laying out in the sun, picking fights with my sister, staying out late with 'the boy,' trying a new happy hour spot almost every day of the week, "borrowing" movies from Redbox ( :-p ), spending hours daydreaming about my perfect wedding dress & actually attempting to draw stick figures with dresses that just look like squares or other awkward shapes, rather.
Just a week ago I had a revelation...Proverbs 16:9
"The mind of man plans his way but the Lord directs his steps."
I have simply spent too much time wasting time. Instead I need to use this transitioning season to hear from God about where he wants me...what he wants from me and how he's going to use me at this point in my life. Often we have an end goal in mind and can see the big picture at the end...the finale. But it's the journey along the way that matters most. The people you meet along the way and influence, the little things that God trys to direct your attention to, the people he places in your life that need your prayers and encouragement...all these things and more are apart of the journey that i'm on-that we're all on- while we're getting to that big picture that we keep on envisioning. Eritrea, China, Vietnam, Cambodia, etc. These are places, big pictures, that God has put in each one of our hearts. But in the meantime...what are we doing with our time, besides working...or looking for a job...or finishing up our degrees...?? How are we fulfilling God's purpose in our lives on a daily basis? That was my wake up call right there. And that's when I started to look for volunteering opportunities where I can gain experience to put on  my resume but also make a difference somewhere and just be available for whatever God's trying to do with me right now. I never want to "just be" or merely exist. I want every day of my life to count for something and represent God's Love. Thinking about all that I can be doing with my time untill God opens up a door somewhere just makes me soo excited! I have a looong list and I can't wait to start checking things off. :)
I encourage you ladies to never settle for dull or lame moments/days. Take advantage of every day to make it worth your while. Most importantly to L-O-V-E.